“Only Now” is a translucent textile installation that explores the subconscious ritual of retrospection and how it influences the present moment. By presenting this ritual through silkscreen, laser printing, and video projections, I define my interpretations of home, transition, nostalgia, and adaptation using personal archived photos, film, and video stills. 

In navigating the lines that connect what is repeated and what is for the first time, this series of multimedia silk manipulations behaves as a maze of fractured memory that obscures our everyday interactions with objects, people, and spaces. The silk’s transparency speaks to the fragility yet potency of memory, obscuring the present moment and manipulating “what was” and “what is” due to triggered recollection. 

This installation is paired with the artist’s book, Fear of Logorrhea, which explores the same themes through archived screenshots, writing, and photos. Using materials such as vellum, acetate, recycled paper, silk, and adhesive paper, I capture a physical manifestation of the habitual acts of introspection and retrospection. By fusing inspiration from traditional photo albums and personal journals, I create a delicate, rearrangeable mind map of memory recollection within a metal binder to signify the power of reminiscence.